My only competitor is myself, I don't generally care about other humans but tend to set myself goals in games.
My only competitor is myself, I don't generally care about other humans but tend to set myself goals in games.
Hmmm overall I'm not that good at games. I'm not bad either. It depends on the game mostly.
I prefer single player games.
The mutliplayer aspects for me is better when it's scores that have to be beaten like in Audiosurf. I don't know why but Audiosurf and Audioshield gets me all fired up to be the best. I'm pretty good in them too.
I thought I was good in Forza until we had that thing where people tried to set the best times and wow other people kicked my ass.
I never used to be too competitive. We had some office CS matches and it was cool to see your stats and see where you placed. Then I started playing more and more narative based games and the competitiveness faded. Even when playing games like BF4 I always PTFO and not for most kills or points or whatever.
Recently, after starting to play PUBG and tasting my first chicken dinner, I want MORE! It annoys me sometimes, because each time I die I actually get angry, and start to blame the LAG (which is a real issue! really!).
I still love my non-competitive gaming, and story still trumps all. Now I just have a split personality!
Ever since my brother told me to "focus on my K/D" (Battlefield 3 days), I've been very hard on myself for the want of "being 'good' at games", which I'm not.
This literally puts in a state of depression when I feel to myself "I suck at games" which happens a lot.
I used to get angry and use a lot of profanity - now it's simply just depression.
I figured it out. My gaming competitiveness and need to be good is all game genre based.
I know that I am not good at games, and have never tried or worried to be good at games. But there are some game types that does bring out my competitiveness and my need to be good.
Racing games like Forza, F1 2016, Dirt and other racing games I usually tend to play at the most difficult settings as possible for controller play. I like the challenge and trying to get the fastest times per lap. I find a lot of enjoyement from that.
Games like Management style games and RTS games are all played at a medium to hard difficulty, and while I don't think I am good at them, I would say that I like the challenge.
But all other games I play at the lowest difficulty possible. No challenge. I don't want to be good at stuff like FPS games, or any of those other multiplayer games everyone plays over and over.
And here is what I figures out. I figured out that my skill level in gaming is dependent on whether or not I fail at the game. Like in FPS games, if I am not good enough I cannot continue with the game, and thus cannot progress the story. I don't get enjoyment from struggling with a level until I can finally progress. Something like Dark Souls is thus absolutely not fun to me. But, racing games I don't necessary need to win every race. I just need to place somewhere good. Most racing games reward you regardless of your position, so I can fail and still progress.
Says a lot about me and my insecurities...hmmmmm
I dont play multiplayer at all. Im all about story.
Gaming is not worthy of your depression. I suggest getting GTA V, steal a plane *in GTA* then fly around listening to the in game radio.Originally Posted by Hagan
then use the in game editor to make a movie of the joy ride.
Its the greatest destresser ever.
I am now just under the influence of depression on a regular basis, and "rage" quit more often.
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