Like ly said you comparing here to warzones. Iraq is a war zone,Syria is a warzone,gaza is a warzone,Ukraine is a warzone
Well, you touch on precisely the point I've noticed in these kinds of arguments: we, as South Africans, have kind of just gone, "fuck it, it's the same everywhere" but
it's not.
Everywhere has problems, yes, but those problems come in significantly varying degrees.
I don't want to just settle into saying, "Oh well, we've got our problems but at least we're not as screwed up as the Middle East." That's not a comparison I want to make because it illustrates precisely how screwed we actually are.
You could also argue what the point of these kinds of discussions is... The people who are aware of the problem can't change it and can really only just feel sorry for themselves.
I was chatting to my brother-in-law about my feelings a few days ago and he mentioned something interesting about the difference in cultures (Scandinavian vs most of Africa). Africa is rolling in natural wealth, resources and potential but somehow the culture that seems to pervade Africa is one of self-destruction, infighting, civil war and all (in my opinion) the result of a kind of ingrained superstition (my tribe/race/cultural identity is worth more than yours so we're going to wipe you out). Whereas the Scandinavians have mostly existed in harsher climates, almost zero natural resources and have persisted into the current times despite also having warred with each other a couple of hundred years ago.
The question that was peripherally raised was whether or not it's the fact that survival was so much more difficult out here that made the difference or whether it was "the difference" the made survival possible.
All the same... I just realised I've been a fool and, perhaps, the helpless "I live here, I doubt there's anywhere else for me" feeling is what triggered some sort of psychological patriotism to kick in.
I can't wrap my head around the way that South Africa functions any more: the racism, the superstition (muthi, sangomas, etc), the religious conservatism (ZOMG NUDITY ON TV!), the government's ineptitude, corruption, greed and general social apathy.
I feel
angry at the way South Africa is run and I feel
angry that so many South Africans are content with their little sanitised pockets of civilisation despite the fucked upness of it all around them.
I love South Africa and I will always (I believe) identify as South African. But I don't know if I ever want to call it home again.
Disclaimer: I've been thinking
