Do you truly hate life here that much that you believe only happiness awaits you if you leave it?
Why is it so bad that I do not enjoy being here? Firstly I am not going to be a civilian for long in england. Secondly the pound is stronger than the rand and it will be easier to visit other countries if I want to do so.
I want to get away from my family(excluding my brother and mom) I don't have anything holding me here. There is nothing to do here, its getting worse to travel at night. Had a few of my friends being booked in by cops and there cell phones getting confiscated from them by the police and never getting them back.(they weren't breaking any law)
No I don't think happiness is waiting for me but I can make myself happy,by doing something I always wanted to do. I am joining royal marine commandos,I have no opportunities here. There are barely any good music festivals here we have to hold our breath for good bands to come here.
My life here is empty. People say I will battle with money there but fuck it I battle here anyway.
People love bashing England, and bashing people who leave to live there.
I doubt I will live there for the rest of my life. I don't know where I will end up but its a start of a journey. People are satisfied to have a family and have a good stable job not me. I don't care if people scoff and think I am a joke I refuse to live my life for other peoples expectations. I want to experience the world. See places go where the road takes you. I don't want to end up sitting at some job doing the same thing every day and look back and think wow what did I do with my life. And the british pound is the best way to really get the journey. Life is short and its going fast. I am 25 and its going faster every year. I have my plans you have yours worry about yourself than what everyone else is doing with yours.
I mean over in Europe you can pursue your music if you wanted to. Here there is no way in hell I can. There is a lot more to the world than one country.
My whole life has been shitty. Growing up in a abusive home takes a toll on a person. I give off this impression on the internet as this kid that doesn't know whats outside his home. You guys don't know me in real life. I know what the world is like beyond my home. And honestly I don't care if the grass isn't greener on the other side but at the moment this side now is pretty much mud for me now and really have no reason to be here.