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Solitude said:
It sounds like you are having a good time! When will you be going back to work or would you rather not think of that?
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I have to admit somewhere during the holidays, something in my head shifted, Im still struggling with stuff obviously, the problems dont go away, I have just changed my attitude a bit. I am still more hermit like and weirdly I am great with it. If I can stay home I will instead of going out non stop. I am slowly getting more fit, loosing weight and in general just more relaxed. I am not even letting my dad's issues get to me so far. This is the first time in over 6 years where I really shut down, relaxed and did what I want to do, not what everyone wants me to do. I have been extremely selfish and as much as I love my friends, I am not a social butterfly. One get together a week is a lot for me. It takes me 3 days to recover mentally. And this year I am not going to let myself get as rundown as I was last year. My depression is finally sort of under control without meds, and for that I am grateful. I still need to register for unisa this week, redo the subject that I failed. And weirdly enough I can pinpoint exactly when my mindset has changed - where it is ok to be broken and not normal and as long as I can deal with it I don't care anymore what the rest of the world thinks. I read the book Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson and even though I have always followed her blog and believe in her way of coping with mental illness, the book made me see that being broken, being depressed, and in general just struggling to cope, is normal and I am not alone in the way that I sometimes think or do things. Its not the easiest book for people to read since its all over the place and weird, but that alone shows how her mind works and the fact that I read the book in one night tells me I am the same.
I have accepted that I am broken, glued together and just some days its ok to hide away from the world and deal with me and not everything else.

Im going back on the 11th and weirdly not dreading it as much, yes I still am unhappy there but at least I have a goal now to finish, where I wanted to give up on my studies last year.
 
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Or the lack thereof, I found it centralized (or forced) too much around drifting and the need to drift around every corner.
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What about a VW Polo TDI? They're tough as nails and you'll be able to get a newer Polo vs a Golf.

or (and heavy BIAS here) look at the Kia Cerato Koup, I have the Cerato Sedan and I'm loving that damn car (and it has a gazillion airbags - which is what I wanted in my car)
 
PsychoFish said:
What about a VW Polo TDI? They're tough as nails and you'll be able to get a newer Polo vs a Golf.

or (and heavy BIAS here) look at the Kia Cerato Koup, I have the Cerato Sedan and I'm loving that damn car (and it has a gazillion airbags - which is what I wanted in my car)
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Even some of the Hyundai's have crossed my mind.
 
BeoTeK said:
Even some of the Hyundai's have crossed my mind.
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Just not the abomination they call a "Veloster", I'd rather consider the Hyundai Accent or the Chevrolet Cruze.

The Kia Cerato and Hyundai Elantra share a rolling chassis and basic engine and gearbox components. The Accent and the Rio are related (chassis/engine/gearbox). The Kia's seem to have better extras (Bluetooth and PDC) whereas the Hyundai has better interior styling on base models.
 
Wyvern said:
I have to admit somewhere during the holidays, something in my head shifted, Im still struggling with stuff obviously, the problems dont go away, I have just changed my attitude a bit. I am still more hermit like and weirdly I am great with it. If I can stay home I will instead of going out non stop. I am slowly getting more fit, loosing weight and in general just more relaxed. I am not even letting my dad's issues get to me so far. This is the first time in over 6 years where I really shut down, relaxed and did what I want to do, not what everyone wants me to do. I have been extremely selfish and as much as I love my friends, I am not a social butterfly. One get together a week is a lot for me. It takes me 3 days to recover mentally. And this year I am not going to let myself get as rundown as I was last year. My depression is finally sort of under control without meds, and for that I am grateful. I still need to register for unisa this week, redo the subject that I failed. And weirdly enough I can pinpoint exactly when my mindset has changed - where it is ok to be broken and not normal and as long as I can deal with it I don't care anymore what the rest of the world thinks. I read the book Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson and even though I have always followed her blog and believe in her way of coping with mental illness, the book made me see that being broken, being depressed, and in general just struggling to cope, is normal and I am not alone in the way that I sometimes think or do things. Its not the easiest book for people to read since its all over the place and weird, but that alone shows how her mind works and the fact that I read the book in one night tells me I am the same.
I have accepted that I am broken, glued together and just some days its ok to hide away from the world and deal with me and not everything else.

Im going back on the 11th and weirdly not dreading it as much, yes I still am unhappy there but at least I have a goal now to finish, where I wanted to give up on my studies last year.
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That's great! I will reply more properly this evening. :)
 
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Good Mornings! man it was a long road back from george glad to be back home but also kinda sad. man that place is beautiful!
 
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G'day! Glad to see someone else gets up at my wakeup time!
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Trying to get up at 5 this year so that I can go to the gym and get stuff done before going to work. I'm not in the groove yet though because I struggle to go to bed earlier and now I feel like a zombie. Hopefully I'll adjust soon.
 
Solitude said:
Trying to get up at 5 this year so that I can go to the gym and get stuff done before going to work. I'm not in the groove yet though because I struggle to go to bed earlier and now I feel like a zombie. Hopefully I'll adjust soon.
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I still haven't adjusted :p

I get up at 5/5:15 in order to get to work at 7, so that I can leave at 4. That way I miss the terribad N1 traffic everyday. The adjustment is a mess, though, as my wife works 5 minutes from home, and thus gets up at 7. So she stays up late, which makes me want to stay up late :(
 
Solitude said:
Trying to get up at 5 this year so that I can go to the gym and get stuff done before going to work. I'm not in the groove yet though because I struggle to go to bed earlier and now I feel like a zombie. Hopefully I'll adjust soon.
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ja it will take you a while to get used to getting up earlier and going to bed a bit earlier
 
Morning all

I only got home at 10pm last night which was fun. Add to that the fact that the little one is sleeping very poorly and you have one very tired me.

I'm considering just crawling underneath my desk and having a dos for a bit.
 
First day back to work :( Brother moving to Cape Town, and dad flying back to Dubai, little baby and wife at home... what a crappy day!
 
Morning everyone. Sounds like you're all as tired as I am. I've been having too many late night gaming sessions, but this kid only falls asleep after 10 now, so I only get started around 11. Passed out on the couch last night before the kid was even asleep
 
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